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søndag, juni 28, 2009
lørdag, juni 13, 2009
tirsdag, juni 09, 2009
So Long, farewell…
Pues, aqui estoy en la cama de la Erika en San Diego, California. Aiiii santo!!!
Another season of my life is over. The last couple of years it feels like Ive had a lot of seasons. While Kindergarten, Elementary School and Middle School all were seasons that took place over many years, these past seasons has been short, but oh so full of fun and knowledge… My year as a foreign exchange students in Kansas, senior year of highschool, 6 months of working, DTS, 4 months of working, and then these past 8 months of serving as a missionary, in so many ways. But now it is over. Wendnesday I can finish the chapter and close the book, and my goal has been to finish it off with an explanation point!
I am done!
…not to mention sad. Its been such a great experience, understanding more of who God is, and learn so much about myself and other people. I find myself back at the point I was exactly one year ago, when I wrote in my journal about how life is never going be the same again. Ever. Back then I had just finished my DTS, and I was chilling out in Ensenada until June 10th, before I started on the trip back to Norway. June 10th this year, I will take the train to LA where Jenny is meeting me, and after hanging out with her for some hours, Im gonna board my plane to Oslo, with a layover in London. I am going back home. Just like I did last year. And the feeling is the same- things will never, EVER, be the same again.
I am not sad. Really; I am not. I am so so SO thankful!! I have had an amazing year, a second DTS you might say, and I have had so much fun! Yeah, life has sucked too. My everyday life was not like a DTS, where you are in a bobble and people invest in you 24/7. But God has been so faithful during these last months, and I am so thankful. He gave me the opportunity to come back to beautiful Mexico, and I got to invest in people. And see a whole different perspective of a YWAM life. Not only by not being in the DTS, but also by letting me travel and see other bases, different lifestyles and new people.
I have loved it.
Ok, so I am a little sad… But not in a bad way. I knew it had to come to an end, and June 10th has been on my calendar sense like September. Still, the last couple of months went by so fast, and I have no idea what happened to this last week… But that’s how it always is. And I am ready. For change, for new challenges. It is good. It is going to be good. And Im excited.
But nothing will ever be the same.
I was hard saying goodbye. I left early this morning with Erika, she came down to visit and pick me up. Last night I said goodbye to some, this morning some, and there were some I never got to say goodbye to. But hey- its YWAM- its never “goodbye”, its “see you later”!!!
This year has changed my life. And formed my life. Changed who I am. How I think. Now I am sitting here, in San Diego, amazed by what God has done and how he works. I am going home. All my plans changed during this year. I am going home, home, to Hamar, to study at Hihm and work with my church. Nothing like I expected, but then I have stoped believe in expectations anyways, cause they will only let you down. Not in this negative way, but honestly; if you expect something you always have to exclude something else. And by doing that you put limits on people, God or things. And somehow you will end up getting disappointed. Getting an A- on a test when you expected an A disappoints you. And then it doesn’t help if A- is a super good grade. For you it is still gonna suck because your expectations were different. So don’t expect- believe. Have faith! If you have pure faith you do not exclude anything.
Sorry, this ended up being a lot of talking. I am done, I am off to bed, I running LOW on energy after a week of carelessness when it came to curfews, 5-6 hours of sleep every night, and just a lot of things happening. And last night ended at like 3am, and this morning started about 3,5 hours of restless sleep after, so I am dead. Almost. (and that would be the excuse for all the spelling mistakes, I am not even gonna read over this to correct it).
I AM GOING HOME. AND I HAVE HAD THE YEAR OF MY LIFE.
THANK YOU JESUS.
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